CLOUD 9

i want to play lawn tennis, i want to learn guitar tabs, i want to go back in playing piano, i want to hug him, i want to soak myself under the sun, i want to read more often, i want to be near to him, i want to go to school again, i want to have that sharapova body (LMAO), i want to pass that exam, i want my family to be happy..you probably would not believe it but i've been trying to do those things since i graduated college. unfortunately, not even a single want has been satisfied.


i kept on thinking on what could probably hinder me from doing what i want. i try to think of the factors that led me to this paralysis. every night when i go to sleep i would just look at the ceiling and think of what would have happen if i did i want to do. if i followed my heart's desires... probably i would not feel this way..

whew.. pondering about these wants bugs me already. but, i will make things right.. i will try do these things again not because it's a must but because i want to. :)